it's been awhile, eh?

a bit of a rant...so prepare yourselves (I figure about 2 people are reading this now so I'm not too worried).

Wanderlust has hit me hardcore. I'm craving a change of pace even though currently I've been at my job a total of 2 months (and 4 more to go...I had to start a countdown). This makes sense I guess because for the last year...my jobs only lasted 2 months and then I had to look for another one. But I just long for the days that I have lined up to travel somewhere...and I took a trip two weeks ago! So I'm a little exasperated. There is a need within me to travel to new places and try new things but then there is also the need for some stability (which is how I ended up here). I don't quite know how to make both sides of me content within my decisions. I understand that recently "real life" and the things that come with it do not coincide with what makes me happy. But sometimes I think I want the "real life" things like a good relationship, kids, a house, a dog, etc... Why is there such a disconnect? And I really can't have both, can I?

And so the internal struggle continues...it makes me tired...but I think I over-analyze things.

As far as other things go:

job: like I said 4 more months...it's going to go by fast (hopefully) and I have a resident friend now which helps a lot (we complain to each other about how ridiculous the other residents/nurses/patients are) and I am currently looking for something seasonal this summer (Glacier, Tetons, Yellowstone, Olympic, Yosemite, something out west (happy now, Lincoln?)) or possibly going back to my favorite job in DC with the 12 year olds. Otherwise they are kicking me off orientation after this week so I'll have my patients by myself...and I know that I've done it before but it's still pretty scary for me. So think good thoughts for me next week!

laptop: good lord...if you know anything about computers please help me out...I really am having trouble deciding on the amount of memory, hard drive and type of proccesor...umm...give me a call...I'll bake you cookies or something if you help me. It's not so fun to be indecisive.

tv: I missed the wedding episode of The Office...so sad :( Is it just me or does this show just get better and better? Also...Lost...although long and drawn out...I watched the episode with Pen and Desmond and now am intrigued. You know they're never going to tell us what is really happening but still...so fantastic! Des is living his life over again?! What?!